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I am thinking that within a year from now I will have gotten a hair transplant to my frontal hairline.  Enough is enough!  I want to get my mind back, and I want to have more confidence.  I am pretty sure that I will be getting my transplant with Dr. Rahal in Ontario, Canada.  He does some nice work and has been getting some great reviews from recent patients.  It is gonna be a strip procedure.  I simply do not have the money for to get FUE from another doctor.  The number of grafts will probably be about 2500.  I just need some money!  About 6500-7000 dollars would be about right.

I get so excited thinking about it.  I have to get back to reality because there is a lot of stuff to be done before I get this procedure such as planning to take time off from work, making up an excuse to tell everyone, and lets not forget: driving for eight hours to Canada!

So, lately my hair loss has been really, really, bothering me.  The fact that it is bothering me is nothing new really, but it changes in severity and right now it is severe.  I have been trying to lose about 10 pounds or so just to improve my appearance which I think will increase my self-esteem but I have a few torn muscles that prevent me from really being able to work out properly.  I have a small tear in my achilles which causes problems with cardio exercise like running and I have a small tear in my pec which gets inflamed when I lift weights, even if it is only curls.  Plus, I don’t even want to work out my chest because of my gyno which would become more apparent if I grew muscle there under the tissue growth.  So you see, I am kind of stuck.  I have even met with three different physical therapists to try to sort out my ailments but they have not helped at all.

What I am have been able to do with minimal pain is jumping on this little trampoline that I have.  This gives a decent cardiovascular workout but I am having trouble sticking to it as I would much rather like to be going for a run.  I am trying really hard to eat better too.  I will try harder I guess.  I plan on posting some pics soon of my hair but I find it to be painful mentally to do so.  Thats it for this Friday’s post.

I am having a lot of trouble with completely stopping cigarettes. When I am not smoking I can’t stop thinking about smoking one and when I am smoking one I feel like crap because I am giving in. Cigarettes are seriously one of the most evil things on this earth (next to MPB of course). This past week I was feeling good about my hair, I thought that it looked thicker and my mom gave me a good haircut too. When I felt that my hair looked good I had confidence in who I was as a person and felt more calm about everything. When I woke up this morning I looked in the mirror my hair looked like shit and so now all of that confidence is washed away in a second. It is replaced by anger and depression. I hate this waiting to see how much hair I am gonna lose due to stopping Propecia. I wish it would just happen instead of this awful waiting. But then again I think that the flax lignans that I am taking and beta-sis and green tea may in fact help with my hair loss. I don’t know what is gonna happen. It is really unreal when I think about how f#*%d up my life started getting when I started to lose my hair. I have such little confidence with my hair as it is and it is only going to get worse. As a general rule I generally hate life, a lot. I am well aware of the fact that it is ridiculous to have hair loss affect me that much but it just does. I fight it every second of my life to have it not ruin everything, but it does, always.

It is crazy how in the world of the hair loss sufferer the way you think  your hair looks changes dramatically not only from day to day, but from hour to hour.  I find that they way that I feel my hair looks greatly influences my mood.  I feel that my hair has seen some improvement lately but I am too scared to say that it has because every time I have ever seen any improvement it has disappeared due to experiencing some sort of side effects and having to stop a treatment.  I actually think that it my hair looks a little better/healthier lately because I have been using Nioxin Shampoo which is a great thickening shampoo.  I think that a little trick to keeping the hair looking thicker and healthier is to have a rotation of shampoo’s going.  If you use a single shampoo for too long I think that the hair gets used to it and stops responding to it but if you change it up, the hair responds and looks fuller.  So I think that I will post some pics that hopefully show a little of the re-growth that I have gotten from the Hairmax Lasercomb.  I have have fairly severe hairloss for my age (22), so I am a little apprehensive of posting some pics but I know that you guys are in the same boat so I am not too worried.  This blog is just a ramble, sorry!

I can remember being in the 11th grade and my chemistry teacher, while walking around the classroom, stopped by my desk and asked me, “James are you losing your hair?” The entire class heard it and looked at me. I was so mortified. I could feel the emotional turmoil pulsating through my body. That event pretty much marked my official entrance into the world of the hair loss sufferor. Hair loss has really affected my life and it is, to this day, a constant struggle. I hope to some day find some type of solution for my hair loss, whether it be hair transplantation or a new drug that comes out.

As for right now, my regimen consists of the Hairmax Lasercomb, Flax Lignans, Beta Sis, and Green Tea. I use the laser comb usually every other day. I have been very impressed with the laser comb. This thing has grown more hair on my hairline than anything else I have ever used. As for the naturals that I am taking, I have no idea if they are having any effect on my hair. The reason why I am taking them is because I had to stop Propecia due to side effects (gyno). I did notice that my shedding has dramatically been reduced since starting with the naturals about 3 months ago which might mean they are having some effect on my hair.

I have almost completely stopped smoking cigarettes which may have also influence the reduction in shedding. I go days without smoking, but sometimes have one with one of my friends and I need to stop doing that. Even though I have grown some hairs with the Lasercomb and reduced my shedding, my hair looks pretty bad. It is really receeded and thinning all over. I may someday soon started looking into transplants again (I almost got one about a year ago). Maybe this natural regimen will do me some good, I will have to wait and see.